i have felt a lot of guilt about this and yet married and still actively masturbating sometimes to pictures in the church directory
i once called a telephone hot line and told them the distress i had because i could not stop.
a christian school teacher called it ononism and was a result of not having pure thoughts and needing to be around people more
when bill g came out with his memorization message i was sure i found the answer only to find that it became worse and i started to go to xxx stores for more explicit material.
actually the only help i have ever found is in condemned material, Nathaniel Branden's books about self acceptance
this has led to great feeling of peace and self control and acceptance.
that reminds me i tried fasting, burning money, and denial of attraction to women. this was when i thought i was the most spiritual
and i am sure some ## minister would say i need to become a true believer.
anyway anyone with similar experience, i feel the church uses this area to encourage guilt so they can get their claws into you.
also, did not want to be to bold as to offend someone, sorry about this subject matter and yet at the same time iam going to post it














