Hey everybody, I discovered this site yesterday and I did read the rules and everything, but I got really wrapped up in reading what everyone had to say in the Azusa Street Survivors forum that before I knew it I had forgotten to introduce myself... so hello, my name's Suzanna. The United Pentecostal Church has consumed my life for the past year and a half, and in a lot of ways it still does (for a lot of reasons). I'm glad that someone helped pull me out of the Pentecostal church after a relatively short period of time, but unfortunately it's a lot more difficult to leave it all behind. I got wrapped up in the church extremely quickly and the process of leaving it all behind me is difficult, especially because I still have to interact with most of the church members. I had no idea there were so many people who had bad experiences with Pentecostal/Charismatic churches, I thought I was pretty much alone and a bad person because I couldn't do it anymore. So it's nice to know that other people really do get it.
I hope to be able to rid myself of Pentecostalism and my feelings of guilt and sadness and urges to go back. I hope to be able to deal with my bipolar depression in a more positive way than the church did, and I'd like to get out all of the things I've been bottling up for a while. Also, it'd be nice to help other people going through the same stuff.
So that, in a nutshell, is me and the story of why I'm here. Sorry I forgot to post yesterday!
I hope to be able to rid myself of Pentecostalism and my feelings of guilt and sadness and urges to go back. I hope to be able to deal with my bipolar depression in a more positive way than the church did, and I'd like to get out all of the things I've been bottling up for a while. Also, it'd be nice to help other people going through the same stuff.
So that, in a nutshell, is me and the story of why I'm here. Sorry I forgot to post yesterday!
