Manny, the Bible says nowhere that you have to speak in tongues to be saved. It only asks that you *believe*. In Jesus. Not in tongues. If they are demanding more of you than that, they are in error. Serious error. Who are they to ask more of you than God does?

I've just a stuffy middle-aged mom who you haven't met, but my suggestion is that you get into treatment- but not through your church. Talk to a doctor, get a referral. Spend as much time with your kid as you can. And if your family gives you flak about going to church, tell them that you feel led to go elsewhere, but you'd still love to see them. Suggest coffee on a Saturday, or something like that. But first things first- TAKE CARE OF YOU. And the most important step there is getting clean.