The more I read what you all went through, the more I think that I had it better, in spite of the stuff I went through in the church. No, I don't have guilt, but reading what you went through, I understand why you carry this. Good night, you must be extremely strong people to have walked out of there as functional human beings!

But what I did carry out of there is constantly questioning myself: what I say/think, how I respond, whether or not I am being real at all times.

You had the guilt trip constantly laid upon you, constantly pushed down your throats, so it seems that is what you carried away. I had to face extreme dishonesty and deceit in that church, so I have periods when I question everything I, myself, do.

I don't know if it ever ends. I have been away for eight years, and I still go through bouts of doubts.
FreeBee