As I have said in many of my post since finding this site they are many of you that write something and I actually think I wrote it and here is another one. I could have wrote the same thing without changing a single word. I think that my guilt has lead me into a life of real depression.

On a similar note I read something on another site, it was actually a gay sex site (I'm not gay, but it's OK for one to be gay) that made a lot of sence to me talking about guilt being an STD. I will paste it onto this response.

Guilt is an STD

This is the deadliest of STDs. It hides in the deepest, darkest places in our hearts and minds. We often don't even know we have it.

Symptoms: Feeling bad after a trip to the bars, baths, bushes, and tearooms, waking in someone else's bed or watching porn. Low self-esteem, excessive drug use, being mean and/or judgmental to friends, family, co-workers or total strangers.

Symptoms Appear: From two to three years of age and in many cases persist throughout life.

If Untreated: Can result in loss of ability to be happy; loss of spontaneity; large therapy bills, loss of love; Random Acts of Meanness; impotence; sexual dysfunction; excessive drug use; epidemics of sexually transmitted diseases.

How You Get It: Someone Else's Family Values; Catholic, Jewish, Mormon or Muslim schools; three or more hours of TV a day; America Online; letting someone else decide what is good for you; politicians.

Cure: Respect and love yourself; Random Acts of Kindness; your own family values; a good giggle; lighten up.