aexapo, thank you for caring and thank you to everyone here for being such bright light in my sometimes dark storm. I really try not to think about my son much these days other than to pray for him. My "mothers heart" has such deep ache for this child. Words cannot express how much I miss the bright, articulate, loving spirit that lies deeply buried within this child of mine. God gave him to me to love and cherish, not "them'. I often wonder how "they" would feel if someone "brainwashed" one their children and caused that child to "shun" them. HOW WOULD THEY FEEL ?