Well thanks all for your words of advice and encourgement. I try not think of myself as a "back slider", it's just hard when it is constantly being reinforced. I have tried a few counselors in the past, but they never seem to understand having been raised pentacostal or having a family that still is, they just seem to know more about "main stream" religons, I quess I should keep trying to find a counselor/therapist that does understand about it though.....I never knew there was people out there that called/considered themselves "ex-pentacostals" , until I found this board.. lol, but I am glad I did, and there is others out there besides myself. I don't know if I would say i'm running from promblems per say, maybe from some of my fears still concerning my family and i'm not sure yet how to get over them. How do you get rid of them when it's your family that is pounding them in your head and your father is a "Man of God"? Most all of my family, extended family, and friends are pentacostals....I have tried ending the freindships and have a few "normal" friendships now, (with non-pentacostals) but it's alot harder with family that tries to pressure, threaten, and emtionally blackmail you back to the church. I feel alone in this and no one understands how this feels, but perhaps if i find any one that does understand it will be on this board.