Lovemylife- I started going when I was 16. My now husband, then best friend/crush, invited me. I haven't quite figured out what void it filled, except that I was used to having a mom that was very anxious and therefore was controlling as a way to feel less anxious. My parents were giving me more freedom and I guess having the church trek me what to do was comforting? I don't really know. That's the only thing I can come up with. I do know my husband deals with some guilt for being the one who got me involved in the church and feels responsible in a way, for the abuse we both endured. He tried to shield me from it the best he could, but he could only shield me from so much. Nearly 2 years later, I'm still not convinced he's told me everything about what that pastor said that was abusive.