Wow, it's been a year since I left Pentecostalism. It's been a rough year, but I don't regret leaving my father's church for a second. I hate that it's caused a rift between my father and I, who used to be extremely close. I still love him dearly and hope that we can eventually reach a point where we can discuss issues comfortable like we used to, despite disagreeing. I feel guilt a lot lately over leaving, but I know that I did what is best for me. I stopped wanting to go to church several months before I actually left. It came to the point where I was dreading the anxiety I would feel after leaving church every Sunday and Wednesday. I'm hoping I can be comfortable practicing my religion again at some point, but I think God understands me taking a step back to take care of my mental health issues lol. I started seeing a counselor for CBT and she's a great help. It feels good being able to discuss these things that go on in my head without worrying about being judged, especially since she is a trained professional.